Monday?

I woke up today and braced myself for a storm. Not the weather, but the battle that had been raging inside of me for a week. I've had a migraine, and anybody who's had a migraine knows how awful they are. And I had been suffering a particular hell, in that I had a regular head-exploding, light and sound sensitive headache on top of an ophthalmic migraine, which produces (in my case) shimmering white floaters in my vision that I can't see through or around. They aren't fun and not exactly easy to work around, and I haven't been able to take any time off, so I did what I could to suffer through.

So, this morning after I had finished getting ready, which is about the time I really start to wake up, I noticed that the dull pressure that usually greets me when still nursing a migraine was gone. I was cautiously optimistic. I walked out my front door only a few minutes late, and arrived at work with a smile on my face. One of my favorite songs was on the radio on the drive in. It's kind of sad, I don't remember which song it was now, but it started the day off right.  The pile of orders I needed to take care of wasn't as high as I usually expect for a Monday morning. So I dived right in. And I had a productive day, though my Inbox may not agree. I got quite a bit accomplished, and I'm trying to keep that stress level down.

But that's not why I'm in such a good mood right now. And I don't know that I could really explain why I am.  It could be that Life is always a surprise. I've learned that you can never know what to expect. There is no way to predict what will come next. And I don't know that I'd want to. I may not always like what gets thrown at me. Or when life pulls the rug out from under me. But then there are moments like I had today, when you've talked to a long-lost, beloved friend who still knows you well enough to suggest a new band to listen to. And while your head may not hurt so much anymore, you hesitate to head-bang, so you stand there and smile and turn the music up a little louder.  Because this is what's been missing, even if no one else can understand it.