Unexpected

The last few weeks of my life have been much unexpected.  And there was really no way for me to see what was coming, so I had no way to prepare for it. Work has been very busy, and almost overwhelming. I do everything I can to stay on top of things, but I still get frustrated by the apparent need to babysit people. Everyone has been trained to do what they need to do, so I don't know if they really just don't get it, don't know it, have forgotten how to do it, or are just too lazy. Whatever the reason, I get really tired of doing other peoples jobs for them, and then being told that I'm not measuring up to their expectations. Now, for the most part I really do like my job. I just feel overwhelmed by the workload I have in front of me and under-appreciated by the people I help most frequently.

The other unexpected occurrences that took me most by surprise were several people from my past popping back into my life. Some were just friends that it's been far too long since I've talked to. And others caught me completely off guard. Two in particular, who seem to be on a similar schedule because they both seem to pop up on the same day.  Now, both of these people were very important to me at one point or another (or at several points in my life.) And both have had very little to do with me, for whatever reason, for the last few months or years.  I know and understand the reasons, but that didn't make the separation from very dear friends any easier.

Now that both are back in my life, I find myself lighter. Almost as if part of me was missing, hidden in the space between us.  Now I feel almost whole again, and quite a bit happier. I'm glad I have my friends back.

I also read through all of my posts here on Life Gone Awry, and I am amazed at what I've been through, and how well I seemed to weather the storm. I know that it's not completely over, but I'm doing better. I'm stronger than I would have ever guessed.  Even I surprise myself.